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so grandpa's in the ICU. it was massively unsettling when i was going through his photography yesterday. it felt something that's done after, you know? i think it falls to me to archive all of our family work, regardless of what happens to gpa. something tells me that i should think of that as an honor or a special task or something.

i'm so confused right now. gpa and i weren't super-close when i was growing up, but as i've grown older, i've learned a lot more about him, and we seemed to develop a good repoire. it's not the overly gushy type. rather, it's the exchange. gpa and gma give my family a sense of history. in fact, gpa was constantly working on some way to preserve the tons of family photographs, and we have some that go back to the 1890s. when he was able, he would categorize, label, scan, etc., etc. and now who's going to do that? i don't know who these people are. so what does that do with those empty spaces that need names? how do i fill in my family history? what happens now?