insomnia sucks. i'm a girl who needs her eight hours of sleep. not because it's "beauty rest." that's a load of crap. i need it because i get very cranky without it, and i'm very sluggish when toby wakes me up at the butt-crack of dawn for his daily walk. when i was in high school, i would just about go crazy at my dad. he was convinced that he had to wake me up in the most heinous ways possible, which usually consisted of yanking my warm and cozy covers off or tossing our 45 lb. dog on my bed. Lady would lick me endlessly and walk all over me until i pushed her off. by that time, i'd be wide awake. and oh, did i mention that this would be on school days AND weekends? now. i love my father to pieces. but come on. that bordered on the ridiculous.
one of my favorite "things" in life is guys. i'm not guy-crazy, but i love how they work. they kind of get annoyed when i try to analyze them (which i do all the time), but they're fascinating. i think it's hilarious when you ask, "what are you thinking?" and the answer is "nothing." and 99% of the time, they're completely sincere. i can't imagine what it's like to just be blank or bored. i'm not devaluing men or anything, and i totally believe that they're necessary. okay, that came out wrong, but you know what i mean. i also love how they're usually no nonsense. if guys are pissed off, they'll tell you. or, if you're another guy, they'll punch you, and that's that, and it's all over. women, however, can be incredibly vindictive, hold a grudge, and manipulate a poor chump until she's satisfied. and even then, forgiveness can be hard to come by. i should know. i am one. i don't really betray my own group though, partly because we can team up and pool our magical powers. a troupe of women in a mall can be a deadly thing. once, angela, laura and i spent six horus shopping on Arundel Mills' opening day. what power. what endurance. i think what i appreciate about most men, however, is the sense of safety that they bring. that sounds serious and mushy and commitment-ish, but i really mean it. guys don't have to be supermen and solve all of a girl's problems or take away her daily stresses, but when they just hug her and hold her for a little bit, things seem to just melt away. it doesn't have to be a relationship-y thing either. when i didn't get the job i hoped for, jody gave me a hug right there, and it was the best thing he could have done. so guys, on the whole, are pretty great. i do believe that there are nice guys out there, and maybe the right one will come along for me eventually. maybe i already know him but have no clue that he's him. or maybe he just doesn't know it yet. ?
i have to say--i have a moral objection to angelina jolie. isn't there anyone who can look beyond her body? she comes across to me as such a sleaze. of course, my male friends don't give a crap about my opinion about her, and the amount of drool at the sight of her is ridiculous. but come on. she practically made out with her brother on the red carpet a few years ago. ick. and poor jennifer aniston. who knows if there was any infidelity, but she and brad pitt would have had the most beautiful babies. i like her a lot. now, she's classy. and actually talented. and pretty. without being skanky.
okay, that's it for tonight. i'm still wide awake, but oh well. it's 4AM, and i'm going to be extremely grouchy in the morning. i'm having serious doubts about me doing my run in the morning, even though it's supposed to be short and slow.
forget it.
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