*awesome*

i feel a lot better. i got out for a run, after a looooong hiatus. bad knee and then BUSY BUSY BUSY, but i decided to stop copping out. i hate excuses, so i just pushed my ass out the door for a short time out. 32 minutes, the JHU loop, with just a little added, and then 200 crunches and 45 push-ups. i wasn't as cold as i thought i'd be, so that was nice. i'd still like to get some better cold weather running gear, but i'll make do for now. (medium tops and bottoms, if anybody's wondering)

i also need to attend to my eating habits a little better, so i think i'm going to try to heed the concepts of the "no diet" diet. i've done it before but just fell out of habit. basically, i just listen and feel very closely, eat when i'm hungry and stop when i'm not. it's so much better, and it helps me to realize how mental eating can really be. we eat out of anxiety, the idea that it's a comfort issue and afraid that it won't be there if we won't eat it now. you know what i mean.

steve griblle gave a good sermon today, and it made me think about how i need to be focusing on the joy of Christ's love for us. he noted that a lot of times when we're having a rough go of things (specific incidents aside), it's often because we're not mindful of the depths that God moves for us. and as i was running, i was considering my future, and i decided that i need to wait on the phd. it's just not time yet. i can go back eventually. or maybe i won't go back at all. but anyway, i want to try some other things before that, and it's better stewardship of my finances as well. i'm comfortable with this, although i know there will be times when i miss it. i do think that i will try to get back into some sort of teaching. that is where i belong. just not at a college right now. i'm okay with that.

peace.